Where is everybody? It's frighteningly quiet over here for the past couple of days. Is everybody on vacation? Coulnd't be right? Shouldn't be . Not while I'm over here, boring my ass off, using my brains until they collapse, hating the way my life's going till I malfunction in every aspect of life. Why is everbody gone? I hate crap over here. Rainy weather, stupid arrogant people, minimal diversion, maximum boresome, crappy ongoing personal hesitancy, everyday depressing monotone house-work-house tendency, and so on. Double crap.
I'm sick, I don't feel great, actually I feel fucked up. If only I could skip a part of my life and continue life 10 years later or something. Actually life would get sucky too in that period of time, wouldn't that be refreshing? In anyway it would be different than things nowadays. There would be a variation in comparison to my "cool" and "joyful" life at this moment. Maybe freezing my body like in Prehistoric Ice Man on South Park, or that bad motherfucker in Judge Dredd, would be an option. Just stay freezed for 10 or 20 years, and than just unfreeze and let the world overwhelm you with her newborn ideas, developments, technologies, cultures, social thoughts, borders etcetera. Wouldn't that be interesting, thrilling and exciting? Everything would be new and you'll just be oldschool and trying to explore the world. Yeah, no old social contacts, just everything new. I'm being a Utopian. Like if life would get better if that would happen.
Life sucks in every era. The Romans experienced it, the Greeks experienced it, the Ottamans experienced it, the communist experienced it and even the hippies experienced it. Make love not war? Yeah sure, like if making love is the most refreshing thing to do. You'll eventually get bored doing that too. Life's always a war, material or immaterial, inner or outer. And life needs war. Something like that Japanese or Chinese balance crap, Ying and Yang. No rest without tasting unrest. Well I'm eating unrest like a pig, so I hope I can shit everything out of my life, body and system as soon as possible, so I'll unbrace, and eventually embrace rest.
Well that was me nagging my shit in English and trying to unleash my heart and thoughts. Thank you for listening, if you didn't, who cares.